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Friday, January 18, 2013
到底對你我還能堅持多少年. 16th of January. 一樣的地點, 一樣的位置, 一樣的紙, 一樣的筆, 一樣的你和我.  Went Malaysia Open with Ykuin. Take bus, ktm and lrt to Bukit Jalil alone for the first time. T.T And then Ykuin pick me up from station. Met YongDae again, from the same place. I sat at the same place like last year. He stand at the same place like last year too. I'm so proud that I didn't shout his name, didn't cry for him like last time. I just sit there and watching him quitely. He's just few m in front me, but so close yet so far.  Received signature from my awesome China Team members.    You know? I talked with ZhaoYunLei and ZhangNan. I like China sound, the sound of hometown. ZhaoYunLei and MaJin even wrote their name after they sign. I really appreciate it, so so much. :')  Kenichi Tago's signature. Met Kenichi Tago for don't know how many time d. Last year Malaysia Open met him for five time I think. He even wave at me on the final last year. He almost can recognize me already hehehe. I call his name when I met him last night. He look at me and smile. & then I asked him for signature. He smile again and said L.A.T.E.R. Later? Fine I sit and wait lo. He went into Player Rest Zone and didn't come out for so long. I feel like being fooled. Ykuin also said so lol. Your later mean forever? Lol. He suddenly come out when I almost wanna give up. :p Then I call him again ahahaha. I no need ask he also know what I want d. He straight away put a hand to take the paper and pen from me. Hahahaha I dislike Japan, but I super duper love Kenichi Tago. Met my lovely KimSarang for the very first time also. Ermm his real people is cuter than picture heheh! :D He shout so loud when he versus China Team. But at last he lose, lose to China. I actually hope SaRang can win, even the opposite one is China. He's the second one who I won't get mad when he won China. This first one for sure is YongDae. :') SaRang ah, I Sarangheyyo you oh! ♥ ***** 17th of January. Received call from China College in the morning. Kind of shock when I heard their sound. They ask me to make an appointment and visit them. I said yes, during end of March. Even I knew I won't be able to study at there. :( Told dad 'bout the call but never tell him 'bout I'll visit there. Maybe affair that he will not allow? I wonder. I wonder what is in his mind now. But I super confirm, I won't have that chance. Hey my dream college. When can I study at there? When. :(  Gathering with Super Gang finally. Never meet them after SPM ended I think? First time gathering without CheeFong and Jaclynn. Invited Chin to come but he said he not free.     Really love them a lots. ♥ ***** 18th of January. PuiVern invited me to Malaysia Open again but I rejected her. I wonder why, maybe don't want to disappointed again. Since I already got those signature so just let it go la. Chris Adcock replied me again this morning. Fuyohhhhh. Really no yi han already la me. xD YongDae ahh, see you again next year. I LOVE YOU.  Monday, January 14, 2013 每個月的十一號, 都是好日子.  11th of January. Booked my air ticket to ShangHai finally. Not that happy like what I imagine last time. I always thought that I'll be hyper when I get my ticket but sometime reality is different with what we think. No mood at all after settle down the air ticket. They will not understand. Once I confirm the date to China, it's also meant the deadline of us. Five years and it gonna end soon, very soon. Will stay at China for three weeks, how suffer will it be. Don't you know what we meant 看到摸不到? I really have thanks my parents for this. I always blame about this home, I always not satisfied about their decision. I always argue with them, I always make them angry. But they still willing to help me achieve my dream. They never blame me, never scold me. They know that's my dream, so they let me go ahead. I'm not a good daughter, I only care about myself. I only worried about my dream my future my everything. I never care about them, but they gave me everything I want. But how to tell them I love them too? :( Mum told me this last night. " 不管到了那裡結果如何, 見到見不到, 你都要回來好好唸書, 好好生活. " Mum, I know you love me. I love you too. I promise you I will accept whatever ending at there. Even if I can't meet him, I will also back here with no regret. Mum, thanks for your tolerate when I always that stubborn to my China dream.  Jaclynn apply to out from NS due to her teeth lol. She suddenly came my shop and gave me a surprise. I really shocked, and also touching actually. Talk alot with her, until sore throat ahahah. And then send her back to campsite on the next day. Carry her luggage to her dorm and have a look of it. Met Alan Momo, a tuition friend. I tried to imagine if I was the one who selected. No light when I sleep, no pork as dinner. No phone no internet no family no friends. Thanks God, for never select me. Really really. ***** 13th of January. Rui lost his wallet at ShangHai. This is the very first time he look so worried and helpless. He found it back after two hours, from a French. Maybe this is what we called " 好人一生平安 " . It's Sunday today. A day when I can contact with three of my sweetie. Sms with EngHwa and she told me the story inside there. Called my beloved zhuzong in the midnight. I miss her sound, so damn much! Talked for about half hour, not willing to end it but I really tired. She told me she can't bear those life inside. But what can I do for her? Nothing. The only only thing I can do is pray for her. & I promised her I'll follow her family to visit her next Sunday. I miss her and I guess she miss me too. :') Told her my situation now >>> I almost fall. Told her what I think of everyday >>> 24th of March. I miss them, so so so much! :(  ***** 14th of January. Current time >>> 2.18am 14th of January. Just the beginning of 14th actually. But since I'm here then shun bian post it la boo. HAPPY BLESSED BIRTHDAY MEOWYUN!  Do you ever heard this? 第一次見面覺得你很安靜, 熟了就會發現你其實很不正經. You are absolutely this kind of girl! I serious oh ahahah! Your face fooled my when we first met. I thought you was a shy girl when our first met. And then when we started to talk, I realized you are friendly. AND THEN NOW! I realized you are sampat, totally sampat ahah! You like to talk crap with us, do silly things with us. *okay la I admit I myself sampat also* HAHAHAHAHAH! Thanks God for letting us met. You're a good friend, good listener. I always throw so many fei hua to you but you still so good to me. /: *headdown* I've learn many things from you you know? I know you won't believe but that's truth, really. You never angry, you forgive anyone easily. You never blame, you force yourself to do the best everytimes. You seldom ask for help, you do everything on your own. You independent, you mature, you understanding, you honest. YOU ARE REALLY REALLY A GOOD FRIEND. May our friendship forever and I Love You MeowYun! ***** For Rui. Three more months to go my dear. I'll be there soon, and we will end soon.  We shouldn't care about the ending. We should keep this four years as a memory. And lock it in our heart forever and ever. Rui, thanks for existing in my life. Thanks for gave me faith for this four years. Thanks for leading me to a bright future. Thanks, for your love. The invisible love. I MISS YOU.  Thursday, January 10, 2013 謝謝, 十八年後還要一起走的朋友.  EngHwa, CheeFong & Jaclynn enter NS for one week already. Sky seem dark, life seem bored. Without them, yes without them. Chat with MiaoYun every night before I slept, hearttalk. And that's what we promised each other. We want to have another eighteen years together. So luckily that she was there when all of them leave. So grateful that I've them in my life, Kching MunSim MiaoYun & Yin. (: Called Jaclynn, received call from CheeFong by public phone. & also sms with EngHwa on sunday. ONLY SUNDAY. I miss them, three of them so so much. Saw Volkswagen TiGuan last night, same pattern but with different color. And for sure, different owner. *sighhhhh ***** Start to prepare for my March China Trip todayyy! WOOOOHOOOOO LIKE FINALLYYYY!  Travel mode on and work mode off. So excited when I mark down those place I wanna go. LIBRARY OF SHANGHAI, GREAT WALL, SUMMER PALACE, FORBIDDEN CITY!      All this still not the most important one I tell you. The most most most important one is >>>>> WuZhen! *Zzangg* I promised myself must go there when I go China. Never heard this name before? It's just a little village so maybe you don't know. But this is a MUST when you go HangZhouuuu! MUST GO! You will know what is paradise if you reach there. Here come my collection photo of WuZhen! ↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓↓      It's a paradise! A place where you can throw away all your worries. The night view at WuZhen will catch your sight! I AM SURE! 我可以不去北京, 我可以不見老王. 我不能不去烏鎮.  Sharing time ended, continue my story now yeahh! Marked down all place I wanna go, checked public transport. Now the only thing left is air ticket and Visa. I don't feel like book it now but mum keep nagging. /: I still not brave enough to set a deadline for Rui and I. Alright I'm started to collect opinion from all of you yea. Tell me what you want as souvenir from China kayy. I'll try my very best to get it, I promised. Gonna settle down this trip before Chinese New Year. And then have to settle Uni thingy before March. Fly when March and then back when April. Brand new life gonna begins after April. So may God bless me, you and all.  ***** Can't attend to Malaysia Open next week due to no transport. Can't attend to Surdiman Cup in May due to Uni intake. Fineee it just seem like I've no any yuanfen with China Team. I fed up already la, booooo.  Friday, January 4, 2013 2013.1.4 = 愛你一生一世 所以王睿呀 你聽著了 我決定愛你一生一世了     在電腦裡隨意找一些你的照片 才發現原來我收藏了五百多張你的照片 睿呀 朋友們都說 你只不過是一場夢 不該維持的夢 夢 為什麼不能成真 為什麼不能變成現實 為什麼付出的是我 受傷的也是我 我一直以為只要我堅持 多少年我都能等 但越來越大 會慢慢發現 有些事情是必須面對 必須解決的 我不可能等你一輩子 你也不可能單身一輩子 這四年裡 無論我做得再多 說得再好 你都不曾理會過我 這四年來 你給過我一句謝謝 接過我一次電話 說了一句 你好找誰 世界末日前一天 你給了我六個字的回覆 而這渺小的所有 對我而言卻是足夠的 我知道我們不可能有結果 但至少 我在年輕時 轟轟烈烈地愛過一個男人 王睿 世界末日多我而言沒有遺憾了 因為有你 有我 我會放下你的 等我從中國回來以後 會放下的 像妙雲說的 哪裡開始 就哪裡結束吧 我會回到現實的世界裡 過我該過的生活 而裡頭不再有你 但至於心裡容不容得下別的男人 就另當說明了 因為肥睿你 佔據了我心裡所有的位置 完全佔據了 哈 睿呀 你知道嗎 如果沒有你 不會有今天的我 我不會有這個天真的中國夢 我不會渴望這樣的未來 我這十七年是為你而活的 而你的二十二年又是為著別人而活的 中國 或許不是每個人都知道 我如此堅持的背後隱藏著什麼 我想去你最愛去的頤和園 去那我們約定五年重逢的南寧 還有你最愛去喝下午茶的新天地 這一切一切 都是為了你 睿 再過三個月我就會到達我們約好的地方了 然後就在那裡結束一切吧 好嗎 然後以繼續過你的生活 我繼續闖我的人生 我們各自努力吧 我這輩子 從來不曾後悔 在四年前 遇見了你 王睿 豎起你的耳朵好好聽著了 我會把你放下的的 然後踏踏實實地過日子 但我絕對絕對不會把你忘了 我會把你永遠藏在內心深處 等哪一天 我們有緣再相見 你未結婚 我還單身 然後請你慢慢把我那凍結的記憶 一點一點融化吧  王睿 我們三月南寧見 我愛你 永永遠遠 |
Yap Yee Ling ✝ Little stubborn Taurus ♉ Arrived earth on 19950511. Dare to Dream. Super fans of Badminton. I love Beast */ B2ST too. I believe in miracles. China is my little dreamland.
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